Letting Go of the Past


“Great blessings await us. We simply have to pray and wait.”

-Annie Writes

I have been mulling over what topic to discuss next for quite some time now and came to a realization. I have begun a new chapter in my life —one that includes a significant other. It’s exciting and somewhat overwhelming (graduate school only), but I find that I am fearless.

There was a time in my past where I feared the thought of being with someone because I did not want feelings to cloud my judgement or to hold me back from achieving my true potential. I was so driven then and consumed with becoming successful, regardless of the toll it took on me. The toll it took was costly; it led to severe depression, self-loathing, and disappointment. Fortunately, I was able to recover mentally and realize that being driven in that aspect was not for me. Do not misinterpret; I am a very passionate and driven person. I simply was chasing after the wrong dreams.

Age and experience have taught me many things, but the greatest lesson I learned was who I truly am. I am a woman who thrives in a healthy community of loved ones and who loves to unite others and see relationships blossom. I am a woman who cares deeply about my family and who wants to create one of her own some day. That was not always the case. Once upon a time I was disillusioned by the idea of marriage. I saw it as an unrealistic fairy tale that Disney spun to create a false sense of hope in young girls. I had heard so many horror stories about ill-doings husbands had committed. I wanted no part of it. I preferred being a lone wolf and being happy to sharing a life with someone and being miserable.

Children were also a big no-no for me in the past. While I liked the infants, I wasn’t much of a fan, otherwise. I also did not think I could be completely selfless like all good mothers are. So one might ask what changed it all; did you fall in love? Yes, but not with who you think. I fell in love with the Lord. My relationship with God has blossomed so much over this past year. He has taught me so much and blessed me with even more.

God has shown me his power and given me the strength to overcome my fears. He has changed my life and it has improved drastically since I accepted him as my savior. God has shown me what true strength is and helped guide me in the path he wants me to transverse. I know God wants me to use my talents as a writer and communicator in the publishing industry. I also know God desires me to experience a type of love I’ve not yet encountered.

My point is simple—do not allow fears, disillusionments, qualms, and reason to hold you back. You cannot grow if you’re constantly looking to the past. Let it all go! Release those fears and regrets and embrace the blessings God had placed before you. All you have to do is ask. There is great power in prayer!

Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.”

-Matthew 7:7-8


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